50-50

I understand alot better of him after a talk with his best friend. Or perhaps I should say, deep in myheart, I knew what kind of guy he is but I just refused to see it until I need someone to really point it out to me.

Goldfish pointed out very significantly to me that this is not something I will want to have for the rest of my life. Sister has outright told me of the consequence of being together. Bear has cautioned me about us. Everyone knew what I was facing but I just continued on being with him.

Why?

I was touched by his tenderness and his loving ways towards me. But best friend has pointed out bluntly that in a relationship and even marriage, these are insufficient to make things work. A pressure cooker like me will only explode once the pressure is too high to be contained.

I want us to work out. But I need a willing party, as well as a party who is willing to see things from another side of the coin before we are able to move on to the last and beginning of the next big stage.

Is he willing to listen? I'm hoping he will but somehow, this hope doesn't seemed to have much strength in it anymore. With a 50-50, I hope he truly understands the issues I'm having with us. Even if it's going to be a huge hurdle to overcome, but he's willing to accept the issues and deal with it, I'd be happy to be with him because I know it will be worth it.