Dreams..Unfulfilled

My absence since the last post was due to work, World Cup and the renovations of the new house, our new house. However, I still felt somewhat that it does not belong to me because it's not really what I want nor what I have in mind. At the end of the day, it seemed tune towards his ideal house rather than mine.

So it was decided. My dream of travelling the world may be shelved because I may no longer be able to fulfil it. Being in a relationship does not allow me to fulfil this dream of mine anymore.

I want to buy a new house. A new flat if posssible. A place where I can escape, and no one will find me. I want to have a hidden cove, a place that I can call "it's my own."

I need something I can really look forward to. Just like my wish to travel the world. With it being shelved, perhaps this unattainable dream (for now) may be able to put me in focus.

A sudden thought of Andrew's planning trip to Argentina makes my heart heart with envy. How I wish I have such drive again now.